Doing better

Hey there,

Woo! I feel so happy.
I've just been waking up every morning, thanking God that I'm alive and breathing.
I'm gonna try to have a positive attitude no matter how difficult the situation.
The situation with Steven hasn't really changed.
Sometimes I really don't think he cares about our friendship.
He has been going up to Marissa's room constantly and we haven't really 'hung out' in over a week.
Everytime I see him lately its like he doesn't even really want to see me..and that hurts.
Cause we were best friends, and now it doesn't really feel that way.
I talked to him today after he got out of work and he looked so bummed out.
He said something obnoxious so I threw my sunglasses at him and he looked super pissed.
So I told him to lighten up.
He said he was having a crappy day and I felt bad and told him I was sorry.
I'm just not gonna worry about Steven that much anymore cause I'm doing my part of the friendship, its up to him to show whether he cares or not.
I don't want to play this silly game forever.
I still care about him, I always will.
He will always have a place in my heart and I will always love him as a friend.
But friendships work both ways, its just feels like I'm the only one trying sometimes....

But anyway...

I went to see Cassy tonight and it was awesome to catch up on stuff with her.
She is such an amazing friend.
I am so happy for her and Brandon.

I'm really gonna try my best not to focus on being single right now, cause that just brings me down.
I'm gonna focus on building my friendships and doing my schoolwork, it will keep my mind off things I can't have right now.

Well, I gotta go do some homework then its off to bed for me!

~Peace Out~ Liz