Silly Boys - Matt

I figured I would discuss what has happened in my love life over the past year or so (or there lackof, heh).
I don't even know where to begin, honestly....
I'm not exactly proud of everything that happened but I figured you might want to know what has happened over the last year.

MATT
Lets see......last year I worked with a guy and his name was Matt. We went to highschool together and he was about 3-4 grades behind me I think. I ended up liking him at work and I could tell that he was interested too.
We kept on texting and hanging out now and then.
I went to a party at his house one weekend and he was smashed when I got there. I didn't have my license at this point so James drove his car over. They were all playing beer pong and had this huge bonfire. I remember sitting in his lap in front of the fire and just talking. He ended up getting all touchy feely and gave me a hicky. I got up and walked over to my car and he kept saying that he wanted to kiss me and I kept telling him no. I knew our lifestyles were too different to start anything so James and I ended up leaving. James was smashed so I had to drive his car and I was scared to death because I barely knew how to drive. This was probably around 5 in the morning when we got home.
Around 8am my mom came up to me after I had showered and asked me if James had been drinking. I couldn't lie and I said yes. Apparently he had been throwing up....and to make matters worse it was the sunday of Father's Day.
So James ended up going to church with a hangover. It was def a lesson learned for the both of us. James was like, "I'm not touching alchohol for a long time".

A week later.....
Matt was going to go into the Army so he invited me out to dinner with his family before he left. I'm pretty sure this was around September 2007 (darn it! why didn't I blog more often?!)
This was also our last day to hang out together before he left for training.
Dinner was awkward because Matt wasn't acting himself at all. He was very quiet and I could tell that his family was annoying him, especially his little sister. It bugged me that he couldn't be himself.
After the delicious dinner at Red Lobster (which his parents paid for!) we changed and decided to hang out at the Field Days.
I called my mom to let her know what was going on and she said that she didn't want me to go and that she had a bad feeling about it. I told her that I was going anyways (oh liz...learn a lesson!)
We rode with some random people on the way there and this one girl started smoking pot and I kind of freaked out cause I didn't want to smell like pot!
So I suffered through it and sort of hugged the door with the window down slightly.
When we got there we walked around and such. It was pretty boring and a rather hickish experience.
Then it suddenly hit me, Matt wasn't what I wanted at all, not even close.
He didn't serve God, we didn't have the same morals or values. Our lifestyles were not even close to matching up. I realized that I hated the way that he acted different around me then around his family. I'll never forget at the Field Days when he said to me, "I hate my family so much". It really bothered me! Maybe I feel this way because I'm so close to mine.
He ended up winning me some stuffed animals (they were snakes for goodness sake!) that night at some game booths. Those things are such an insane waste of money.
We ran into Kristy (a girl that I work with) and ended up going to a party at her house.
I didn't plan on drinking but they finally convinced me. I had some Smirnoff and ended up getting a buzz. Matt started drinking too and then Kristy kept saying how we could make out.
So we went to the back of the garage and he kissed me.
We stayed there awhile longer and then his friend drove us back to my house (since neither of us could drive).
The whole way back I layed in his lap and we held hands. Obviously my sense of judgement was off, haha.
He got out of the car with me when we got to my house and he kissed me goodnight and then we said goodbye.

He left the next day.
I woke up the nexy day and felt stupid.
I have no idea why I kissed him. When I think about it now, I didn't even have feelings for him, i think I was just looking for attention and he was giving it to me.

Lesson learned....or so I thought....

A couple of weeks later I was at church and we had a special speaker.
I ended up getting a phophecy.
It was all about the guy I am going to marry and how I was going to meet him in 2008. It goes into great detail about what he is like and most importantly how I will know its him by what he says to me. (I don't want to type it all out right here, because its kind of a secret!)
The prophet said that he saw him coming into my life around Jan-Feb 2008.
Well anyway, it really got my thinking....that I was going to wait for this person and kind of stay from the whole hanging out with guys thing.

So I waited and waited and waited.....got my driver's license on November 20th! Yay!
It was one of the best feelings I had ever had.

and then I waited some more.....but you will have to wait until the next blog for that...

~Liz~

Life as we know it

Hey there!

Wow....I haven't updated in that long?!
I guess life just keeps you busy at times...heh
Or laziness gets the best of me.

Where do I start?
I'm still working at Nice N'Easy. I'm a shift manager now. Its an ok job, I don't hate it, I don't love it.
I don't make enough money, still under $10/hr which sucks.
I tried selling prints of my artwork on etsy.com but I just don't have the time to devote myself to that fulltime.
Lately, I haven't been drawing like I should be. I go through phases where I am crazy motivated and others where I could care less.
I've also wanted to do something with fashion for awhile but I kind of put it on hold. Anyone that knows me, knows that I'm obsessed with fashion.
So I got inspired, for now I'm going to start customising clothes. I want to get the point where I can make my own from scratch but I can't get ahead of myself.

Yesterday I went out to Rome and Utica and bought lots of supplies. Ribbons, buttons, fabric, you name it.
I'm really excited to get started on this! I'm going to sell my custom pieces (as well as my prints) on etsy.com
You would actually be surprised at how much people will pay for custom clothing!
I'm going to model my clothing as well. I'm gonna call my line "Icespectra".
Didn't see that one coming do you? haha
But really, Icespectra has been with me for so long, I use it for everything, it really defines who I am.

This time in life is so confusing, trying to figure out what to do.
I sort of want to go back to college but I just don't see how that is a possibility anymore. I have bills now, car payment, car insurance, phone bill and college bill. I need to be able to pay for those things, most importantly the car bills. I just don't see how its possible when your in school.
If I was to go back I would probably go for fashion design and buisness.
I still want to do my art, don't get me wrong, but I want to do something with fashion too.
If God wants me to go back to school then he will make it happen.
I love this feeling of inspiration!

~Liz~

Sick

Sorry I haven't been updating.
Sunday night at work I started feeling like I had nausea just randomly out of the blue.
Mike , my friend from college, came to visit me at work.
I hadn't seen him since the end of my last semester...and that was in June 2006?
Oh man, so long ago.
He said that he couldn't believe how much weight I lost.
I felt gross those because I was wearing my ugly Nice N'Easy uniform.
He said if I wanted to hang out he would come and pick me up and drive me to Utica.
So that was pretty sweet.

Back to the sick think.
So I went home at 11 feeling awful and it just got worse from there.
So at about midnight I couldn't stand it any longer. I was in my bed tossing and turning.
I ran upstairs and threw up. Throwing up is not a common thing for me.
So I ending up waking up and throwing up every 2 hours the whole night.
Monday I literally slept the whole day.
I got up at 8pm and my whole body was very weak and sore.
I ate some chicken normal soup and drank apple juice.
I'm better today but def not back to normal.
Now James has the same thing!
I'm just glad it was over.
I don't get sick very often and when I do it sucks.
Well, off to work soon.
Boy, I can't wait.....*cough*

~Liz~

The "average" customer

I've dicovered that the local customers in my area that come into Nice N' Easy are a little strange.
I'm not sure if this occurs at any job where customer service is involved or just here.

The first thing I find humorous is the fact that almost everytime I ask a customer if they would like a bag they say, "sure, if you have one"
okk...so let me get this straight...why on earth would I ask you if you wanted a bag if I didn't have any?!
Complete stupidity!
One of these days I'm just going to flat out say "no, I don't have one"
Maybe I'll do it before I leave *crosses fingers"

The second thing I notice is that most customers would not know politeness if it punched them in the face.
For example....I ask a customer "how are you doing today?" I get silence.
"is that it for today?" I get silence.
"x amount is your change, thank you and have a nice day" I get silence.
Is this my punishment for being nice?
I simply cannot understand it.

Third and not quite final, I hate how the customers expect me to work inside their time schedule.
For example, awhile back I had a woman get impatient with my coworker and I because we had to make a pizza and she had to pick her kid up in 10 min.
Now, this is confusing...why didn't the woman just come in earlier?
I can't understand why it was my fault that she was going to be late.
Its not like she called in and ordered the pizza earlier.

Sigh...

Is this the future of humanity?
I would like to hear some other stories of terrible customers.
Sometimes I just laugh at how immature so many people are.
You know, the quick roll of the eyes and the impatient huff every time a simple problem arises.
God forbid you wait 10 minutes in line to pay for your little ol' candybar!
AND these are grownups, yes, GROWNUPS.
They are out there at every job just lurking and hoping to make your day a living hell.

Hope your day was as wonderful as mine :)

~Liz~

Kid at Heart

I look out the window today , low and behold, snow is actually falling from the sky.
I'm still shocked that we don't have about 5 feet gracing our lawns.
I'm used to 10 ft high snowbanks created by the guy that plows our driveway.
Those were the good ol' days.... playing out in the snow.
I kind of miss those outdoor adventures.

How quickly our ideals and thoughts change as we age.
Our teddy bear is no longer our best friend and toys can no longer speak (no offense Toy Story).
I know I still have some kid left in me. But it will never be the same again.
I guess thats ok because I'm in a new stage of my life.....ADULTHOOD.
Well, technically young adult....yet I still feel like a kid at heart.
Is it so bad that I find cartoons and comic books interesting?
I think too many people lose their childhood spunk.
They get too involved in their busy schedules and petty tasks.
Is it bad that I want to still play video games when I'm 80?
I know its not a bad thing to have responsibility and to "act your age".
But where has all the fun gone to in my former generations?
I watched a story on tv about a woman that was over 100 years old and she wanted to go sky diving.
It showed her jumping out of the plane and having the time of her life.
How awesome is that?
I want to grow old like that, having no regrets and living my life to its fullest.
Cool beans.

Soo...today has aquired the title "Boring Day #2"
All of my friends are busy and there is basically not much to do.
If I could drive I would prolly go to the mall and search through endless clothing stores.
Then again....maybe thats not such a good idea...

I decided that I actually do like my new haircut.
I got it cut and dyed last Friday.
I went dark again with red steaks.
I've never been a redhead before so this is kind of interesting.
So far I've gotten a pretty positive response.
I'm not used to it darker.
The fact that I was blondish for almost a year explains why I feel this way.

James is at work right now so I can't be graced with his lovely presence *cough*
I think I actually miss him when he isn't here..
well...most of the time, except when we get into super lame-o fights over the dumbest and most petty issues.
Gotta love my boey though ^.^

Time to go do nothing, it what I do best :)
well...maybe not best *hides in corner*

~Liz~

Red shoes rock

Alrighty..... you know those days that you just wake up and everything is boring?
Yes, that was my day.

Well, all except finding a pair of bright red shoes at Rue21! I screamed in excitement as my eyes found the beautiful shoes (ladies, you can relate I'm sure).
Last week I went shopping with my mom and James (brother) and I looked everywhere for bright red pumps. Not a single pair in sight.
So today I found them and snagged the last pair off the shelf which just-s0-conviently happened to be in my size.
Ok, ok, enough about fasion talk.

So earlier I was pretty down in the dumps. My college bill came and I starting thinking about money and how much longer I am going to have to work at Nice N' Easy.
I'm so sick of working there. Yes, I am thankful for a job but at the age of 22 a gas station job is not very acceptable. Especially considering that I have an Associates Degree in Illustration (3 years at MVCC).

So there you have, crazy crazy crazy.

I'm worried about my friend Jeremiah.
He is kind of having ex-girlfriend troubles.
She won't talk to him, which is extremely childish and immature.
I feel bad, I wish I could be a better support.
Sometimes I feel like I barely know him, maybe I don't.

On a lighter note Martha and I are going shopping on Thursday.
We need to get to together before she has to go back to college.

I smell rice pudding and I want some ASAP!

Step in Life

Hey everyone, I know that its been a very long time.
I graduated from MVCC with an Assocates Degree in Illustration earlier this year.
I am currently working with my brother at Nice N' Easy.
Yes, nothing impressive, I know.
On a lighter note, I finally got my permit!
WOOT WOOT!
Took me long enough eh?I got a 100% on the test and now I'm just waiting for my parents to take me out on some back roads.

I have a new friend and his name is Jeremiah. He is 26 and a Christian like myself. He is a great guy but I have no attraction to him in that kind of way. He really likes me and its kind of awkward because I just want to be friends with him.
About 2 weeks ago he called me up saying that he had a job for me.
It would be working at a TV Station updating their website on a daily basis.
The job would be 9-5 and I would have weekends off. Plus after 90 days I would get Health and Dental Insurance, and a 401k plan. AND I would be getting paid double what I currently make!Now for the scary part....I would have to get an apartment near the workplace...meaing, move away from home.
That means pay for my own bills, something that I've never done before.I mean, at the same time I am EXTREMELY excited.
This is the next big step that I know I have to take.

As for the Steve and Sarah situation, I don't talk to either of them. It hurts too much.I can't be friends with either right now. I guess they are "madly in love".I'm just trying to forget everything and move forward.
Yes, I'm sick of being single but I've come to the point where there is nothing I can do.I haven't met anyone that I want to be with forever, I know it will happen eventually......someday

Oh yes, and Annie and Cassy both got married! How exciting eh?
I better not be the last one standing alone.....More updates later.....trust me, there is a ton of them.