Back at school

Ok,ok, so I've been a bad updater.I've been busy with stuff ever since I got back to school.I'm really pressing into my artwork again, which is really nice.I found my passion for it again and this time there isn't any 'distractions' (aka: steven)My classes are all good, even though I had to change a couple.I'm currently taking Professional Practices for Illustrators, Cartooning, Screenprinting, and Intro to Psychology.Yup, only 4 classes, but thats ok, its my last semester at MVCC (finally).I'm not sure what school to go to next.I really want to take more art classes!I know I should have this figured out by now but I just don't.My parents told me that they aren't going to finance the next place I go, so I'm on my own...and honestly? it scares to to DEATH.

I don't have any idea how I am going to support myself...So Erin is back on campus again, which is awesome and Marliana, Erin and I hang out all the time.Its so nice to have a group of girls to hang out with and be close to again. The last time I really had that was in highschool with Danielle and Stacey.

I haven't talked to Sarah in awhile. We are speaking to each other but we haven't really hung out since all the crap that happened.Steven called me on my birthday but that was it.I don't understand him, I don't understand why he won't call me.It feels like 3 years of friendship down the drain.I leave him IMs and text messages here and there and almost never get a response back.I just don't know what I did for him to act like I don't exist...and I know he is calling Sarah, of course, why wouldn't he?I guess she might be leaving MVCC early and go to the college that he is at.Perhaps it is something to do with the fact that they could be near each other and date.I don't know..I wish I didn't care at all.Although it has gotten better, it doesn't bother me nearly as much as it did. I think now I just want to know that Steve cares for me as a friend, just show me something that he cares at all.It hasn't been that bad at school without him, (for one I eat better, get enough sleep and I'm just overall healthier).

I just hate how all my friends have someone and its like I'm the only single one in our group.Man! When on earth am I finally going to be with someone!?Its so extremely frusterating that I can't even describe it.Its almost like I'm destined to be single forever and I just have to except it or something.Sorry for all the venting, I'm just in a bad mood right now and I feel gross and its a dreary, rainy day outside.

Poop.

~Liz~