Hey everyone, I know that its been a very long time.
I graduated from MVCC with an Assocates Degree in Illustration earlier this year.
I am currently working with my brother at Nice N' Easy.
Yes, nothing impressive, I know.
On a lighter note, I finally got my permit!
WOOT WOOT!
Took me long enough eh?I got a 100% on the test and now I'm just waiting for my parents to take me out on some back roads.
I have a new friend and his name is Jeremiah. He is 26 and a Christian like myself. He is a great guy but I have no attraction to him in that kind of way. He really likes me and its kind of awkward because I just want to be friends with him.
About 2 weeks ago he called me up saying that he had a job for me.
It would be working at a TV Station updating their website on a daily basis.
The job would be 9-5 and I would have weekends off. Plus after 90 days I would get Health and Dental Insurance, and a 401k plan. AND I would be getting paid double what I currently make!Now for the scary part....I would have to get an apartment near the workplace...meaing, move away from home.
That means pay for my own bills, something that I've never done before.I mean, at the same time I am EXTREMELY excited.
This is the next big step that I know I have to take.
As for the Steve and Sarah situation, I don't talk to either of them. It hurts too much.I can't be friends with either right now. I guess they are "madly in love".I'm just trying to forget everything and move forward.
Yes, I'm sick of being single but I've come to the point where there is nothing I can do.I haven't met anyone that I want to be with forever, I know it will happen eventually......someday
Oh yes, and Annie and Cassy both got married! How exciting eh?
I better not be the last one standing alone.....More updates later.....trust me, there is a ton of them.
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Sunday, January 29, 2006
Back at school
Ok,ok, so I've been a bad updater.I've been busy with stuff ever since I got back to school.I'm really pressing into my artwork again, which is really nice.I found my passion for it again and this time there isn't any 'distractions' (aka: steven)My classes are all good, even though I had to change a couple.I'm currently taking Professional Practices for Illustrators, Cartooning, Screenprinting, and Intro to Psychology.Yup, only 4 classes, but thats ok, its my last semester at MVCC (finally).I'm not sure what school to go to next.I really want to take more art classes!I know I should have this figured out by now but I just don't.My parents told me that they aren't going to finance the next place I go, so I'm on my own...and honestly? it scares to to DEATH.
I don't have any idea how I am going to support myself...So Erin is back on campus again, which is awesome and Marliana, Erin and I hang out all the time.Its so nice to have a group of girls to hang out with and be close to again. The last time I really had that was in highschool with Danielle and Stacey.
I haven't talked to Sarah in awhile. We are speaking to each other but we haven't really hung out since all the crap that happened.Steven called me on my birthday but that was it.I don't understand him, I don't understand why he won't call me.It feels like 3 years of friendship down the drain.I leave him IMs and text messages here and there and almost never get a response back.I just don't know what I did for him to act like I don't exist...and I know he is calling Sarah, of course, why wouldn't he?I guess she might be leaving MVCC early and go to the college that he is at.Perhaps it is something to do with the fact that they could be near each other and date.I don't know..I wish I didn't care at all.Although it has gotten better, it doesn't bother me nearly as much as it did. I think now I just want to know that Steve cares for me as a friend, just show me something that he cares at all.It hasn't been that bad at school without him, (for one I eat better, get enough sleep and I'm just overall healthier).
I just hate how all my friends have someone and its like I'm the only single one in our group.Man! When on earth am I finally going to be with someone!?Its so extremely frusterating that I can't even describe it.Its almost like I'm destined to be single forever and I just have to except it or something.Sorry for all the venting, I'm just in a bad mood right now and I feel gross and its a dreary, rainy day outside.
Poop.
~Liz~
I don't have any idea how I am going to support myself...So Erin is back on campus again, which is awesome and Marliana, Erin and I hang out all the time.Its so nice to have a group of girls to hang out with and be close to again. The last time I really had that was in highschool with Danielle and Stacey.
I haven't talked to Sarah in awhile. We are speaking to each other but we haven't really hung out since all the crap that happened.Steven called me on my birthday but that was it.I don't understand him, I don't understand why he won't call me.It feels like 3 years of friendship down the drain.I leave him IMs and text messages here and there and almost never get a response back.I just don't know what I did for him to act like I don't exist...and I know he is calling Sarah, of course, why wouldn't he?I guess she might be leaving MVCC early and go to the college that he is at.Perhaps it is something to do with the fact that they could be near each other and date.I don't know..I wish I didn't care at all.Although it has gotten better, it doesn't bother me nearly as much as it did. I think now I just want to know that Steve cares for me as a friend, just show me something that he cares at all.It hasn't been that bad at school without him, (for one I eat better, get enough sleep and I'm just overall healthier).
I just hate how all my friends have someone and its like I'm the only single one in our group.Man! When on earth am I finally going to be with someone!?Its so extremely frusterating that I can't even describe it.Its almost like I'm destined to be single forever and I just have to except it or something.Sorry for all the venting, I'm just in a bad mood right now and I feel gross and its a dreary, rainy day outside.
Poop.
~Liz~
Monday, January 2, 2006
Saying Goodbye
Ok, where do I start? ..seriously
The last week of the semester was a HUGE mess.
So yeah, I believe is was on the Thursday of our last week of finals and Gary IMs me and asks me if I want to go hang out with him and Fred in the snackbar.
So yeah, I'm super bored and I can't find Steven for lunch so I go over.
..so we just hang out and talk for awhile and then I bring up the topic of Steve and Sarah.
Gary and Fred suddenly have blank stares on their faces and they are both like, "we didn't want to tell you this but we have to.."
So apparently Steve and Sarah have liked each other for about a month and had been making out in the back seat of Sarah's car. and they decided not to tell me, their own best friend...nice
Yeah, I know what you are thinking, no biggie, right?
Well, I'll have you know that Sarah knew that I am crazy about Steve and she pursued him anyway.
Now what kind of girlfriend does that?!
You don't go after the guy that your friend likes!!
..and the fact that they both knew it would hurt me and they hid it from me.
AARRRGG!!
So I was in complete shock and I went back to my room and I called my mom.
and I guess Gary and Fred drove to the resterant where the whole theatre group was having lunch and they told Sarah that I knew and that I was pissed.
So I went to Josh's room to go talk to him and after awhile I decide to leave, so I set my purse on the windowsill outside of his suite door and low and behold Steven and Sarah have just pulled into the parking lot right below the window.
So I run back inside Josh's room because I no-way-on-earth want to talk or see either of them.
So for over 3 hours I guess they waited outside of my door sitting in my suite waiting for me (according to my roommate) while I just hid in my friend's rooms the entire day.
..and they waited in his room for about another 4 hours.
So Marlaina finally convinced me to go up and talk.
So I talked to Steve for about an hour and it was so hard.
I just couldn't stop crying.
I refused to talk to Sarah (she sat in his room while we talked in his suite).
Steve kept telling me that he was sorry.
..and he said that they weren't going to date for 3 reasons:
1. because of how I feel
2. because steve isn't a christian and sarah's mom doesn't approve
3. because steve is going away to another college
Finally I left and went back down to hang with Marlaina, Mike and Josh and we watched "40 year old virgin"
The next day I went to lunch with Steven and we talked some more.
Then I finally told him that I wanted to be on good terms before we left because I didn't know when the next time I would see him would be.
So yeah, every night after that, before we left, we hungout even though I'm still hurting.
The day before we left we went to the mall to get Christmas presents for each other.
I bought him a Senses Fail shirt (hot pink and black WOOT! WOOT!), a braclet, a pin and the Gex 3 N64 game.
He got me the Punk Goes 80's cd which I have been wanting for awhile now.
So we listened to that and it was AWESOME!!
He said he wanted to get me more things but he was short on money.
It was so hard to say goodbye.
How do you say goodbye to your bestfriend..not knowing when you will see each other again?
Believe it or not I didn't cry, and I thought I was going to.
Right before we left I told him that even though I am still hurt that I forgave him and that I don't hold grudges.
So we said our "I love yous" and it was goodbye.
Oh yeah, and before he left he gave me his tiger blanket that I love so much, yay!
So I didn't talk to Sarah for about 2 weeks and we finally talked a little bit at the Christmas party at our church...that was ok.
Then yesterday we talked for awhile and cleared some things up.
I mean sure, I'm still hurt but life goes on.
It will take some time before I can trust her again. you know?
I turned 21 on New Year's Eve and Steven finally called me and we talked for awhile.
It was nice and I miss him so much.
So yeah, I hate how I had to deal with all that crap but at least I don't have to anymore.
Next semester is going to be so different for me without Steven around.
I can finally move on and like other guys (hopefully!)
I think its going to be easier to let go because he won't be there.
A whole campus of guys awaits me! tehe
I'm not really looking for someone but I never know what will be right around the corner...
~Liz~
The last week of the semester was a HUGE mess.
So yeah, I believe is was on the Thursday of our last week of finals and Gary IMs me and asks me if I want to go hang out with him and Fred in the snackbar.
So yeah, I'm super bored and I can't find Steven for lunch so I go over.
..so we just hang out and talk for awhile and then I bring up the topic of Steve and Sarah.
Gary and Fred suddenly have blank stares on their faces and they are both like, "we didn't want to tell you this but we have to.."
So apparently Steve and Sarah have liked each other for about a month and had been making out in the back seat of Sarah's car. and they decided not to tell me, their own best friend...nice
Yeah, I know what you are thinking, no biggie, right?
Well, I'll have you know that Sarah knew that I am crazy about Steve and she pursued him anyway.
Now what kind of girlfriend does that?!
You don't go after the guy that your friend likes!!
..and the fact that they both knew it would hurt me and they hid it from me.
AARRRGG!!
So I was in complete shock and I went back to my room and I called my mom.
and I guess Gary and Fred drove to the resterant where the whole theatre group was having lunch and they told Sarah that I knew and that I was pissed.
So I went to Josh's room to go talk to him and after awhile I decide to leave, so I set my purse on the windowsill outside of his suite door and low and behold Steven and Sarah have just pulled into the parking lot right below the window.
So I run back inside Josh's room because I no-way-on-earth want to talk or see either of them.
So for over 3 hours I guess they waited outside of my door sitting in my suite waiting for me (according to my roommate) while I just hid in my friend's rooms the entire day.
..and they waited in his room for about another 4 hours.
So Marlaina finally convinced me to go up and talk.
So I talked to Steve for about an hour and it was so hard.
I just couldn't stop crying.
I refused to talk to Sarah (she sat in his room while we talked in his suite).
Steve kept telling me that he was sorry.
..and he said that they weren't going to date for 3 reasons:
1. because of how I feel
2. because steve isn't a christian and sarah's mom doesn't approve
3. because steve is going away to another college
Finally I left and went back down to hang with Marlaina, Mike and Josh and we watched "40 year old virgin"
The next day I went to lunch with Steven and we talked some more.
Then I finally told him that I wanted to be on good terms before we left because I didn't know when the next time I would see him would be.
So yeah, every night after that, before we left, we hungout even though I'm still hurting.
The day before we left we went to the mall to get Christmas presents for each other.
I bought him a Senses Fail shirt (hot pink and black WOOT! WOOT!), a braclet, a pin and the Gex 3 N64 game.
He got me the Punk Goes 80's cd which I have been wanting for awhile now.
So we listened to that and it was AWESOME!!
He said he wanted to get me more things but he was short on money.
It was so hard to say goodbye.
How do you say goodbye to your bestfriend..not knowing when you will see each other again?
Believe it or not I didn't cry, and I thought I was going to.
Right before we left I told him that even though I am still hurt that I forgave him and that I don't hold grudges.
So we said our "I love yous" and it was goodbye.
Oh yeah, and before he left he gave me his tiger blanket that I love so much, yay!
So I didn't talk to Sarah for about 2 weeks and we finally talked a little bit at the Christmas party at our church...that was ok.
Then yesterday we talked for awhile and cleared some things up.
I mean sure, I'm still hurt but life goes on.
It will take some time before I can trust her again. you know?
I turned 21 on New Year's Eve and Steven finally called me and we talked for awhile.
It was nice and I miss him so much.
So yeah, I hate how I had to deal with all that crap but at least I don't have to anymore.
Next semester is going to be so different for me without Steven around.
I can finally move on and like other guys (hopefully!)
I think its going to be easier to let go because he won't be there.
A whole campus of guys awaits me! tehe
I'm not really looking for someone but I never know what will be right around the corner...
~Liz~
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