Another great day alone in the lab

Hey there,
yes I need to update more, no knew news there.
I'm at work right now, I only work on Fridays, 3:00-9:00
sooooo yeah, I went to the mall with Josh last night and I bought the coolest bag ever!
Its shaped like an electric guitar and it has rhinestones and its shiny!
Ahhhhh, I love it and I have never seen anyone with it so yeah, I feel special.

Also, I dyed my hair black and blond underneath and it looks amazing!
But I have to fix it so there is more black and I want to make the blond like white blond.
I feel so pretty.
It was the first thing I ever really did daring with my hair and I really like it.

So yes, things with me and Steven are good I suppose.
He still isn't himself around me at times, maybe things will never go back to how they were.
He is leaving next semester and it going to be so weird for me here with one of my best friends gone.....but life goes on right?
I'm going to miss him like crazy and it just won't be the same here.
I love him but I have learned that I have to let him go.
We can't be together and he doesn't want to be together.
I've let go of that notion finally, and trust me, it wasn't easy.
I see it now in that if we are ever meant to be together again then it will happen in the far future and if not than God has somebody waaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy more amazing in store for me.
..and you know what? thats really exciting!
I've never really been treated like a princess.
I've never really been swept off my feet.
I've never really been called beautiful everyday.
I can't wait to meet him, I really can't..and I hope I'm everything that he is looking for...

~Liz~