Missing you :-*

Hey there,
How am I going to make it through the summer?
Its already been rough and lonely.
I got to see Martha twice last week and that was nice.
I missed her, I really did.
I'm trying to find a job and its kinda frusterating...
My hair smells like smoke from the bonfire at the family picnic that I went to.
I'm not really used to that smell at all.
Wooha fun I guess.
All I can say is that I want to get out of this house!
Ethan and Liam are driving me insane!
I'm not used to having little kids around all the time, especially ones that talk back and whine all the time (...cough* Liam).
Not to mention my dad has been on my case about everything....I swear, sometimes I think I can never please my parents no matter what I do...
Anyone else feel like this?
Well, it totally sucks, thats for sure.
I wish I could get my own place, in Syracuse or something..I like it there.
But there is just no way that I could afford my own place at this point in my life...oh well, I guess I'll just have to make it through the summer and get a job as soon as I can.

So yeah, I've talked to alot of people from college online but it just isn't the same.
I miss everyone sooo much... I can't wait until fall semester begins.

I talked to Steven several times online but we haven't talked on the phone yet.
I don't know what the deal between us is.
I tried to get a clear answer but all I got was confusion.
I think he is still hurting from past relationships....I wish I could help..
I care about him so much, I wish this could be easy.
I'd like to see him this summer, I really would.
Steven, I'm missing you like crazy..... :-*

~Peace Out~ Liz