All Alone

Hey there,
Yay! My dad got my internet to work in my dorm room....that makes me happy.
Valentine's Day was alright I guess.
I really wasn't that upset.
I gave cards to alot of friends and I made cookies for all my guy buddies.
Deep down there was still that desire to spend that day with someone amazing.....
..I'm not sure if I will ever spend a Valentine's Day with someone...
I hate it..I really do..

I just got out of class (Art Appreciation) and that test wasn't fun.
I should have studied more...
Before class I saw a girl I went to highschool with (one of my best friend's sister) and she obviously was now dating a guy that I had seen her with last year.
They kept on kissing and hugging close while they were sitting down and it was totally killing me and making me extremely jealous.
Dude, I need physical contact!
I'm 20 years old and my hormones are raging...this so isn't cool..
What is wrong with me!?? Seriously..I just don't know.
I saw the most gorgeous guy today...in fact, I keep seeing him.
Maybe its a sign..prolly not though
I wanna talk to him, but what do I say?
"Hello, I'm Liz"
ha, no

So now I just want to cry.
I just want to crawl into a hole and cry my eyes out.
Yes, I am thankful for all my friends but I need somebody closer.
You can have all the friends in the world and still be lonely.
I want to be in love so bad.
I feel so sad..so empty.
I keep praying for this guy..and he is out there somewhere..I think
I just don't know anymore.

And Steve has been a jerk lately.
Never comes to see me ever and I think he really likes Marissa.
Not like there is anything wrong with him liking Marissa...I just wish I knew that he wanted to hang out with me too..considering we are good friends..
'sigh'..I just don't get it

I miss home, I miss my family.
I just wish my mom was here. To just hold me while I cry.
I'm trying to look on the bright side, really I am.
I'll be ok...

I'll update more while I'm working On Friday afternoon.

Peace Out ~Liz~