Missing you :-*

Hey there,
How am I going to make it through the summer?
Its already been rough and lonely.
I got to see Martha twice last week and that was nice.
I missed her, I really did.
I'm trying to find a job and its kinda frusterating...
My hair smells like smoke from the bonfire at the family picnic that I went to.
I'm not really used to that smell at all.
Wooha fun I guess.
All I can say is that I want to get out of this house!
Ethan and Liam are driving me insane!
I'm not used to having little kids around all the time, especially ones that talk back and whine all the time (...cough* Liam).
Not to mention my dad has been on my case about everything....I swear, sometimes I think I can never please my parents no matter what I do...
Anyone else feel like this?
Well, it totally sucks, thats for sure.
I wish I could get my own place, in Syracuse or something..I like it there.
But there is just no way that I could afford my own place at this point in my life...oh well, I guess I'll just have to make it through the summer and get a job as soon as I can.

So yeah, I've talked to alot of people from college online but it just isn't the same.
I miss everyone sooo much... I can't wait until fall semester begins.

I talked to Steven several times online but we haven't talked on the phone yet.
I don't know what the deal between us is.
I tried to get a clear answer but all I got was confusion.
I think he is still hurting from past relationships....I wish I could help..
I care about him so much, I wish this could be easy.
I'd like to see him this summer, I really would.
Steven, I'm missing you like crazy..... :-*

~Peace Out~ Liz

Shopping day with Steven

Hey there,
Well, I'm finally home for the summer.
I can't say its very exciting to be home though.
I already miss my friends like crazy...how am I going to make it through the summer?
Well anyway, my last week at college was a blast.
On Tuesday I went to Syracuse with Cassy, Erin, Brandon and Jason (as well as the other people that will be living in the house) to look at another 'house' kinda like the one that Cassy and Brandon will be living in.
I am still very ify about the whole thing.
Yes, it would be a better environment but my heart is not there at all.
I really think that Yu needs me, she really needs a true friend. Someone to be there for her.
I heard her crying on the phone earlier in the week and it made me so sad.
I think the whole 'house' thing is a fun idea but honestly i would much rather do something like that when I am done with college.
Erin really wants to be in the house and Jason thinks otherwise.

So yeah, wed was the best day!!
Me and Steven had picked up our paychecks on Tuesday so on wed we left to go to the mall a little after 2:00pm
I had sooo much fun the entire day.
He is seriously the best guy to shop with....he waited in every store while I tried on clothes and he didn't complain once.
The cashier in Aero whispered to me that he was a keeper. Awww
Going to Aeropostale was the best cause we tried on clothes at the same time and showed each other (not to mention the super deals in there).
For lunch we shared Chinese and it was sooooo good.
Then we shopped a ton more.
We planned on going to a somewhat fancy dinner together but I was still full from lunch so we went to Friendly's instead.
We got a big platter with different food on it and we shared it and for dessert Steve insisted that we get the 5 scoop icecream sundae with 3 toppings.
MMmmmmm..let me tell you, that was super yummy.
And.... after all that craziness we went to Wal-mart and got some stuff.
Yu looked sad before we left so I decided to buy her a friendship necklace and Steve bought her candy.
We gave the stuff to her when we got back and seeing her face light up was the best thing ever.
I love making people happy like that, it gives you one of the best feelings inside.

Thursday I hung out with Steve most of the day and at 6 I went to my Art Appreciation class and I gave my presentation. Shana said that I did well and that I looked like I was well-prepared, thank God!
Later that night Me, Steven, Shaun, Erin (other one), Yu, and Danielle all went to the movies and saw Star Wars 3. Woo! It was such a good movie. There were so many people there, I'm surprised that they weren't all sold out.

So Friday was a tough day. I spent most of the day with steven and packing.
After lunch Steve and I ran into Cassy and Brandon and let me tell you I have never seen Cassy more happy in my entire life.
She took me aside and basically told me that Brandon told her that he wants to marry her.
Woo! I am soooo happy for her, they are so good together.
So we sat down and talked for awhile (the 4 of us) and then we said our goodbyes to Cassy and Brandon.


So yeah, I didn't know I was going to have so much stuff when I was done packing and I'll let you all know, it barely fit in the car.
I can't believe that me and my mom got everything to fit.
Hauling everything down from the second floor wasn't much fun either.
So yeah, I finally introduced Steven to my mom.
Yes, my mom has never met Steven Tarnow in the 2 years that I have known him, crazy, I know.
I think she liked him and she said that he seemed like a nice guy.
It took me forever to say goodbye to Steven.
It was so hard to do, I'm surprised that I didn't cry.
I care about him so much, I hope we get to hang out together over the summer.
We talked about going to Myrtle beach, that would be the best.
All I can say is that he better call me lots, haha...cause I already miss him so much.

Well, here I am now, sitting at home, bored outta my mind.
I wish I was at college now, isn't that sad?
I should be glad that I'm home, but I just kinda wish I could be with all my friends again...

~Peace Out~ Liz

The Arts Festival

Hey there,
Well, I was going to continue to update everyone on this week.
So the day after Steven's birthday me and Steve planned to go to the mall after we got our paychecks at 2.
So I skipped my class and we had so much fun.
Steve got a new pair of DVS shoes which are super stellar (he got them for $40) and I got a cool green shirt.
I got to work just in time at 6pm, which was good.

Wed night Rob came up again and at 3 in the morning me, steve, riki, marissa, yu, jorden and rob all went to Denny's.
We didn't end up going to bed until about 6 or 7 in the morning.
Geez, I need to get more sleep.
So yesterday when I woke up my stomach really hurt.
I hardly ate anything all day, everyone else that ate complained about their stomach hurting too....so what does that tell us?
That Denny's is evil!!!

So I went to my class at 2 but I left early cause my stomach hurt.
So I helped Steve, Rob, Riki, Shaun and Marissa take all the equipment down to the IT theater.
So I watched them set up and practice, because they were going to perform first at the Arts Festival.
Me, Marliana and Mike all sat right up front and had awesome seats.
There weren't a whole lot of people there but it was so awesome.
Steve, Rob, Shaun and Riki did such an awesome job.
It was very cool.
Marissa did a solo song and she was amazing.
I love her voice!
Steve performed acoustic later, after some other people performed and he did really well.
I was so proud of him.
I love it when he sings...
He had to leave at 7 because he had work.
So all the rest of us went to the Night Hawk at 8 because we all missed dinner at 7.
But yeah, Rob left after Steven got out of work.
I didn't end up going to bed until 5 and now I am totally feeling it.

So yeah, there is my fun, exciting week in a nutshell.
What am I going to do when I go home? seriously though....
Speaking of which, I'm getting my hair cut tomorrow and I can't wait.
I'm not sure how to get it done though.
I can't wait to see my family.
I miss them all so much...

I'm am super duper hungry right now...I hope Josh comes soon and brings me a sandwich..that would be amazing..
I'm gonna go back to doing nothing at all..

~Peace Out~ Liz

Good Times

Hey,
So yeah, I should be updating everyday...I know
So yeah I have so much to tell.
I didn't go home last weekend because my friend Marliana's ex-boyfriend, Rob was coming up and I really wanted to meet him.
He plays drums and he is playing with Steve, Shaun, Riki and Marissa in the Arts Festival, which is tonight!
Well last Friday he came up and I listened to them practice for awhile which was cool cause they sound wicked good and then we all went outside.
We all went down to the big blue mat which is by the track and jumped on it for awhile...it was seriously fun.
Then we all went back and stayed up till like 6 in the morning.
Then on Saturday I couldn't get anyone up but Steve and Rob but Steve had a class so me and Rob went to brunch.
It wasn't really awkward though because he is a wicked cool guy and very easy to talk to.
So we spend the entire afternoon together just hanging out and talking.
Then everyone went to dinner at 5 and we had a blast.
Its so great that I feel I can be myself now.
I really can.
Its really cool that I'm friends with everyone now and I don't feel rejected.
I think its just me opening up and not caring as much as to what people think.

Sunday I went to the place that Cassy and Brandon are going to live next year.
It looks like a cool place and the people we met there are really cool.
I'm so confused in the whole matter though.
I have plans to live on campus but Cassy and Brandon really want me to live off campus with them.
My problem with this is that I don't have a car, which would mean I wouldn't ezactly get to go and come back when I want to and that I would have to carry my stupid art portfolio all day.
The other thing is that I go back to my room alot (I'm always forgetting things in my room) and I wouldn't be able to do that.
The thing that bothers me the most is that the house (its actually an old convent)is put together by the catholic community. They say the place is for Catholic-Christians but I feel kinda funny about the whole Catholic thing because it is so different from what I believe.
I've been talking to my parents about it and they are kind of ify.
They want to find out my information about the Catholic church that is located next to the house.
I'm going to talk about it with them and my pastor when I go home with weekend.
I gotta keep praying about it too.

But yeah, I was the first one to wish Steven a Happy Birthday.
We were in the basement study room (he was doing hw) and I turned to him and said, "you know what? happy 21st birhday steven!"
then shaun came in and I told him it was Steve's birthday and he was like, "Happy Birthday! was I the first?", so i said "nope, that was me" ..and shaun justs looks and the floor and sighs...haha
So yeah, Steve had dinner with his family and later that night when i got out of my class steve and I spent at least 2 hours in Wal-mart which was actually really fun.
Then we hung out and it was fun :)

Well, I'll update more later..gotta go to class now

~Peace Out~ Liz