Thoughts

Hey there.
So today was boring.
Isn't that interesting....not really.
So anyway, this morning was good.
I felt so depressed when I got to class though.
I'm not sure why.
Maybe its because I'm lonely and I really want to be in an amazing relationship.

I saw Tony after class.
I miss him alot.
It was good to see him.

I talked to Annie today.
I hadn't in like 4 days.
Thats a long time.
She is excited about the wedding.
Rephrase, she is EXTREMELY excited about the wedding.
I'm so happy for her.
Her and Kerry are perfect together.
She is so blessed to have somebody that loves her wholeheartedly.
I can only hope for that someday.
Maybe it will never happen.
I don't know.
I'll never know now.
I just have to wait and see what the future brings me.
Whoever the guy is, if there is one, I can't wait to be with him.
My prince charming is out their somewhere.
It will be true love when I finally meet him.
An emo song sounds good right about now.
Haha, just kidding.

So yeah, Josh came over to my room today.
(Oh boy)
Yes that was sarcasm.
You see, I think he still likes me but I think he is getting the hint that I'm just not interested.
AT ALL.
I find him annoying now, and I can't explain it.
So he came over and immediately asked me if he could use my computer.
Of course to use AIM.
Being the nice person I am I said yes.
So yeah, 10 minutes later Shana was about to go home for the night and I wanted to do my homework out in the lounge.
So I told him I was gonna go out in the lounge.
I don't exactly trust him to be in my room alone.
So he is like, "You want me to leave?"
I basically said yes and explained why.
I felt bad but oh well.
Then about 2 hours later he comes back and the instant he walks in he asks if he can use Shana's computer.
I'm like, "I wouldn't"
So he just kinda hung around being kinda annoying for about 5 minutes and then he is like, "I'm going now"
What a weirdo.
I mean, I thought at first he kinda seemed like a nice guy cause he didn't do drugs and stuff like that.
Plus he beleives in God.
But for real, the guy can be really annoying.
I'm getting the vibe now that all he is using me and Shana for is our computers.
Geez, and I rarely have the heart to say no.
So I make the effort not to be in my room at certain times of the night.
Call me harse if you will.
I just don't want to deal with it.

So anyway,
I've been thinking about changing my major.
I don't think I could actually do it.
I mean I'm good at art and all, it just feels like it isn't my passion anymore.
I hate that feeling.
My passion is music.
I just wish that I had some music background.
Oh well, just keep praying about it i guess.
Steve told me I shouldn't switch.
Ryan said the same thing.
Other people too.
I'm not sure what to do.
I was thinking General Studies if anything.

So I actually did some homework tonight.
Wow, thats amazing.
Gotta get myself back into the habit.
Last week was bum week for me.

I'm hungry.
I wish I had some soup.
Wow, that was random.
Oh well.
Cheers for randomness.
Its what I do best....

~Peace Out~ Liz