Stress free...for at least a day

Hey,
I know, I know, I haven't updated in awhile.
But there is indeed a reason.
My monitor broke last Thursday sooo...that totally sucked.
My parents are so nice, they gave me their monitor for the moment.
My mom and James (my brother) brought it up on Monday and my mom took us out to eat at Panera Bread. It was soooo good.
It was nice to be around family.
I actually really start to miss everyone from back home while I'm here.
My mom said they will just use their laptop until they get a new monitor.

So I had a weekend tragedy.
It was just a small tragedy.
I was unaware that the bookstore closed early on Friday so I went there at 4:15 and it was closed.
I needed to buy a special pen to ink my project I've been doing for Editorial Illustration.
So I called Ryan like 3 times this weekend and every time I called he wasn't home.
He has the pen that I needed so I thought he would prolly let me borrow his for the weekend.
I asked his mom to tell him to call me back but no phone call.
I was so frusterated because I couldn't work on my project until yesterday cause I didn't have the pen.
My mom took me to AC Moore and we got it for $14.00 on sale.
It was normally $25.00........yeah, I know, stupid.

So I started inking it when I got back to the school yesterday.
After dinner Steve stole a chair from the ACC building.
It was just sitting on the floor up the stairs and he grabbed it and we ran like the wind all the way back to Penfield.
So now he has a chair with wheels. Yay for Steve.
Ha, I love him.

So Steve took Annie and I to Target to see Kerry after dinner then we went to Best Buy.
I was so pissed.
They still don't have The Spill Canvas cd.
Thats the third time I've went and its not there.
This is creating a problem.
I really want that cd.
What I wanna know is why Best Buy hates me?
Ah, corporate greed of course, haha, I mean more along the lines of supply and demand.
Thats society for ya.
I told Steve that I bet a whole bunch of hungry fans cleaned the store of my desired cd.
Don't give me that look, its possible....

So I got back and worked on my project until 5 in the morning.
Low and behold it still wasn't completed.

So today in class I completely was freaking out in class.
I found out that Ryan has another friend named Liz and there was a bit of confusion there.
Oh well, it happens.
I was under so much stress that I almost started crying.
But I finished it and it looks fantastic.
How do I do it?
How do I always manage to pull it off?
It quite funny really.

So yeah, I want a boy.
Aw, its making me sad, I want one so bad.
This sucks..I hate it.
I don't know what to do to get someone to like me.
Just fill my life with other things I guess.
I need a J-O-B
Wouldn't it be nice if a job and an amazing boyfriend came in a package deal?
Ha, no pun intended.
Gotta love me.

~Peace Out~ Liz

Thoughts

Hey there.
So today was boring.
Isn't that interesting....not really.
So anyway, this morning was good.
I felt so depressed when I got to class though.
I'm not sure why.
Maybe its because I'm lonely and I really want to be in an amazing relationship.

I saw Tony after class.
I miss him alot.
It was good to see him.

I talked to Annie today.
I hadn't in like 4 days.
Thats a long time.
She is excited about the wedding.
Rephrase, she is EXTREMELY excited about the wedding.
I'm so happy for her.
Her and Kerry are perfect together.
She is so blessed to have somebody that loves her wholeheartedly.
I can only hope for that someday.
Maybe it will never happen.
I don't know.
I'll never know now.
I just have to wait and see what the future brings me.
Whoever the guy is, if there is one, I can't wait to be with him.
My prince charming is out their somewhere.
It will be true love when I finally meet him.
An emo song sounds good right about now.
Haha, just kidding.

So yeah, Josh came over to my room today.
(Oh boy)
Yes that was sarcasm.
You see, I think he still likes me but I think he is getting the hint that I'm just not interested.
AT ALL.
I find him annoying now, and I can't explain it.
So he came over and immediately asked me if he could use my computer.
Of course to use AIM.
Being the nice person I am I said yes.
So yeah, 10 minutes later Shana was about to go home for the night and I wanted to do my homework out in the lounge.
So I told him I was gonna go out in the lounge.
I don't exactly trust him to be in my room alone.
So he is like, "You want me to leave?"
I basically said yes and explained why.
I felt bad but oh well.
Then about 2 hours later he comes back and the instant he walks in he asks if he can use Shana's computer.
I'm like, "I wouldn't"
So he just kinda hung around being kinda annoying for about 5 minutes and then he is like, "I'm going now"
What a weirdo.
I mean, I thought at first he kinda seemed like a nice guy cause he didn't do drugs and stuff like that.
Plus he beleives in God.
But for real, the guy can be really annoying.
I'm getting the vibe now that all he is using me and Shana for is our computers.
Geez, and I rarely have the heart to say no.
So I make the effort not to be in my room at certain times of the night.
Call me harse if you will.
I just don't want to deal with it.

So anyway,
I've been thinking about changing my major.
I don't think I could actually do it.
I mean I'm good at art and all, it just feels like it isn't my passion anymore.
I hate that feeling.
My passion is music.
I just wish that I had some music background.
Oh well, just keep praying about it i guess.
Steve told me I shouldn't switch.
Ryan said the same thing.
Other people too.
I'm not sure what to do.
I was thinking General Studies if anything.

So I actually did some homework tonight.
Wow, thats amazing.
Gotta get myself back into the habit.
Last week was bum week for me.

I'm hungry.
I wish I had some soup.
Wow, that was random.
Oh well.
Cheers for randomness.
Its what I do best....

~Peace Out~ Liz

Another Boring Day at MVCC

Hey,
Yeah, so last night was kinda boring.
I fell asleep after dinner and then me and Steve hung out for a long time.
At 1 we went to McDonalds and Steve got 3 McChickens and 2 Double Cheese Burgers.
I got a small fries and a McChicken.
Stupid idiots forgot my fries so we had to go back.
Good food though, mmmmmmm.
Then I just kinda stayed up a little bit and then I went to my room.
The girl that lives next door named Reisa knocked on my door about 30 minutes later and asked me if I had a condom.
Ha, I said no.
So in about another 30 minutes I heard them banging in the room next to me.
Good times, ..heh..

So yeah, anyway, today has been completely boring so far.
Thats not unusual though so...
Steve and I are supposed to go to Best Buy today.
I really hope we end up going cause I really want The Spill Canvas cd.
I'm due for a new cd.
I have a new favorite band.
They are called Daphne Loves Derby.
I love them.
I think I'm going on an emo streak.
Straylight Run cd comes out this month and I'm excited.
I am in love with that band.
Ha, why is it that most people have never heard of the bands I like the most?
You wanna know why?
Cause people are getting sucked into the mainstream monster.
Its all good though.
I like some mainstream bands too.
So you can't exclude me entirely.
I'm not completely against the grain.
Just listen to what you like is what I say.
Music is so much more than the beats on a page.
Deep down its all about the lyrics, the part that speaks the most.
Thats why music is woven into my life and music speaks to me.


Daphne Loves Derby (one of my favorite songs)
"The Longest Story"

Far past these roads there is a place
Where all of our precious dreams remain
Someday I know
I’ll find a way
To keep myself from holding on.
Stay awake with the sound of my voice
I'm restless from the silence in the air.
I want to be somewhere I can see the roads
A place where every time you breathe a wish comes true
I want to be where love is real
And memories of distant days come to life again
Inside this room, time will stand still
As long as I'm not aware of changes
The world outside leaves me behind by myself
It shows no mercy for those who hold on.

Still awake with the sound of my voice
I’m restless for the silence in the air
I want to be somewhere I can see the roads
A place where every time you breathe a wish comes true
I want to be where love is real
And memories of distant days come to life again

Far past these roads there is a place
Where all of our precious dreams remain
Someday I know
I’ll find a way
To keep myself from holding on.

I want to be somewhere I can see the roads
A place where every time you breathe a wish comes true
I want to be where love is real
And memories of distant days come to life again

~Peace Out~ Liz